our yes is a yes - 10th week saturday
I
have a dilemma and I do not know what to do.
There are windows right beside the door of my room. The question is, are these the windows of my
room or are they windows of the priest pasillo?
I said I do not know what to do because if they are windows of my room
then I am responsible for their cleanliness but if they are windows of the
priest pasillo then they are not my responsibility. Those windows, it would seem, are not in my room and neither are they out
of my room. And because it could not be
decided as to where they stand, no one can be pointed as having responsibility
for their cleanliness.
You
see windows are ambiguous. Ambiguous
means there is a lack of clearness, there is no definiteness – ano gid bala? It is difficult to distinguish and it is hard
to clarify.
We
could not deny that seminarians can sometimes become like windows. They are not yet in and yet they are no
longer out. They do not know where they
stand – naga-agaw-agaw.
They
demand freedom and yet they forget freedom's twin which is responsibility. They claim maturity and yet they cannot make
priorities and sacrifices. They assert
adulthood and yet they won't let go of their baby bottles of dependency needing
to be told and even threatened so that they will do what they ought to do and
not do what they ought not to do.
Windows
are like that, they are ambiguous – they are neither in nor out.
Whether
you like it or not I am your prefect and it is my task to welcome you home
tonight. Prefects are in-charge of
imposing the rules. In the seminary
there are a lot of rules, in fact we have a long list of rules. In my long years as prefect I have never
really relied on rules. Sometimes I
impose them to the letter but many times I treat them as references and
guideposts. But this I always hold
sacred – say yes when you mean yes, and no when you mean no. There should be no ambiguity in our
relationship – our yes is a yes and our no is a no. Ours is a relationship of trust. In the seminary you do not break rules but
instead you break your word and in doing so you break the trust.
As
prefect I take things personally for you are my family, you are my community,
this is our home – our yes is a yes and our no is a no. We are not windows
neither in nor out. You are home,
welcome home.
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